A lot has happened since I first started blogging. I've retired from escorting, been to the crazy hospital, moved, and began a polyamorous relationship with two amazing people.
My life has changed significantly for the better and I am so grateful. I've had a lot of time to reflect. My past no longer haunts me. I understand my mental illness so much more now. I understand and love myself more than ever.
I'm still making amateur porn and don't see a stop to that in the near future. It's something I love to do and my fans are a huge part of my current confidence. This is something I was meant to do and I love it! The porn has lead me to cam modeling and I started that two months ago. It is not as difficult as I thought it would be. I just turn my cam on and let them watch me. Some people are happy just seeing my face or hearing my voice, but I end up showing my titties and pussy every now and then. It brings in a significant amount of nickles, so I'll continue to do it until I get bored with it.
My family life has improved. Mom is in Utah with her Hubby and her precious dogs. She loves the weather out there and begs us to come visit. My younger Sister is happier than ever and we talk more regularly than ever before.
My home life is amazing and almost too good to be true. I am now a 24/7 house "wife" to my vanilla friends, but my true role is slave of an amazing Master who I adore. He has saved my life time and time again and I honestly don't know what I would do without him. The thought of his amazing kiss makes me cry happy tears. Our relationship is great for the most part. I have my days were that love/hate feeling comes to the surface. But I understand my disorder much more now and I know when my thoughts are irrational and how to cope with them. Every day I have to remind myself that I am okay! I'm exactly where I am meant to be. I'm safe, loved, and wanted.
Surprising to me, I have a girlfriend now who makes me even happier. My Master and I make love to her together and we all have a great connection and make a good team. What makes us click is that we take our lives one day at a time.
So life continues and I am very happy. I have much more time to write, so my blogging will be more regular. In fact, I will be starting a new blog with my Master and girlfriend. We will be sharing our erotica and detailing some of our sexcapades.
Until the next post...happy humping!
